its not easy being green

green is seemingly the colour i turn on a daily basis these days. i cant help it...i just get a bit jealous....and the ugly green monster rears its ugly head when... someone else is holding estelle. its true! and i know it sounds ridiculous, but i cant help it, i get so jealous!

maybe it roots from having a million people telling me (on virtually a daily basis) to make sure i appreciate everyday because it all goes so fast, or maybe its the fear that she will like someone else a wee bit more than me, or maybe she will change if im not holding her...whatever it is, i cant help but feel the desperate need to grab her back.

now, that being said, i rarely do this. i know in my heart that i cant keep her the same and i know that its better to let her meet others and be comfortable with people other than me, and so i let people hold her, i let them try to rock her to sleep, i let them make her giggle, and i dont resent them for it....but i am dying to take her back as soon as they are willing to ;)! funny isnt it? and maybe a bit crazy?! it is who i am and i cant fight it. i just dont want to miss a minute.

estelley and i are enjoying the month at the cottage, spending time with mumsie's side of the fam, and having visitors every so often, i mean, when ever will i get this opportunity again? so enjoying a full month of mat leave to the utmost, and will be back in september to get back into the swing of things.

ps estelle is 3 months this weekend! a whole new clothing size already!